- Billie Eilish opens up about why she doesn’t like herself when in love
- She struggles with being vulnerable in romantic relationships
- Eilish admits to hiding her feelings and not expressing her needs in relationships
Billie Eilish recently opened up about her discomfort with being vulnerable in a romantic way, and let me tell you, it’s a mood. In a chat with Lana Del Rey for Interview magazine, Lana hit Billie with some deep relationship questions, like who leaves who with a thousand questions after a breakup and if it’s more dangerous to fall in love with Billie or for her to fall in love. Big questions, Lana.
Billie’s response was both relatable and kind of heartbreaking. She admitted, “I literally hate who I am so much when I’m in love.” Ouch, girl, we feel you. The struggle is real. And can we just appreciate Lana for getting right into the nitty-gritty of relationships? We stan a queen who isn’t afraid to dive deep.
The “Bad Guy” singer went on to explain that she has a hard time being vulnerable in a romantic way because it makes her feel uncomfortable. She confessed, “I have a power issue and a control issue, and I also don’t like being vulnerable in a romantic way.” You know what, Billie? Same. Vulnerability is scary, and it’s totally okay to feel that way.
But here’s the kicker – Billie doesn’t even know how many times she’s been in love. She mused, “I think there’s different versions of love, and I think that you can be in love and it might not be deep.” Deep stuff, Billie. Love is a complicated beast, and it’s hard to unpack all the emotions that come with it.
Lana also pointed out that she was surprised by the vulnerable lyrics in some of Billie’s songs, like “The Greatest” and “Skinny,” from her latest album. She prodded Billie about whether she gets hurt sometimes even though she tries to hide it. Billie revealed, “A lot of moments on this album are about situations where I was like, ‘I’d rather be tortured inside but have somebody think that I’m cool, than have somebody think that I’m hysterical and actually express my feelings.’” The struggle between wanting to seem cool and actually being vulnerable is all too real.
Billie confessed that she often chooses to suffer in silence rather than express her true feelings. She’d rather have people think she’s nonchalant than come across as sensitive. It’s a tough balance to strike, especially in relationships where emotions are running high.
In relationships, Billie realized that she tends to put other people’s needs above her own. She said, “I found myself never ever expressing any of my needs.” It’s like she’s afraid to show any sign of weakness, or stand up for herself. We’ve all been there, letting our own needs take a backseat to make others happy. It’s a tricky dynamic to navigate, but recognizing it is the first step to making a change.
At the end of the day, Billie’s lyrics reflect her struggle with vulnerability and the desire to appear strong and cool. It’s a relatable journey that many of us can empathize with. Relationships are messy, emotions are complex, and sometimes it’s easier to keep our walls up than to let someone in.
So, if you’re feeling the same way as Billie, you’re not alone. Vulnerability is tough, but it’s also what makes us human. It’s okay to feel uncomfortable, scared, and unsure in relationships. We’re all just doing our best to navigate the messy world of love.
If this article resonated with you, share it with a friend who needs to hear that it’s okay to struggle with vulnerability in relationships. Let’s lift each other up and embrace our messy, beautiful selves. Here’s to being real, raw, and unapologetically ourselves. Cheers to that!
